MrsWargamer
Matrix Elite Guard

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Hey guys ... first off, this is NOT an attack on media. But I've seen a struggle (in myself) this last 5+ years, my life has changed in a variety of ways. The one relevant for here ((wargame land), is my ability to cope with violence in my media (books, games, film). I used to own a MASSIVE reference library. No more. All gone. The knowledge, it got too much to carry. I used to enjoy watching documentaries (military history in this case). No more, I'm getting rid of it all. War movies, I just can't watch them anymore. I have less trouble with the older dramas, but, it's still, about watching death. I just watched We Were Soldiers yesterday, and I finally realized, "I can't do this anymore." Wargames seems to be an exception. I think because I don't see them as 'real'. To me, my wargames are just pixels fighting on a screen, or pieces of cardboard fighting each other. It's not real. Might be very accurate to the event depicted, but, no matter how often I play, no one is actually dying. I'm wondering, does anyone else here fight with this sort of thing? I'm hardly a common veteran, but, I am ex-military. But I don't think that is what is at work with me. My time in was back in the 70s. I was young and stupid. And I fortunately never saw anything scarring in uniform. I also build models, and again, they are just puzzles made of lots of little pieces. Just a more complex form of Lego experience to me.
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Wargame, 05% of the time. Play with Barbies 05% of the time. Play with Legos 10% of the time. Build models 20% of the time Shopping 60% of the time. Exlains why I buy em more than I play em.
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