MrsWargamer -> RE: The perfect retirement (3/15/2021 3:02:09 PM)
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Immortality by any means scares the crap out of me. An eternity of hell is different from an eternity of heaven by only about a thousand years. Hell is immediately undesirable, heaven takes a while to make you realize you hate it. I'm an atheist, there is neither. But I will refuse any artificial means of forever too. No, you can't put me in a machine and let me exist forever. I want to go back to nothing eventually. I might like an extra hundred years. But, I'd rather I spent the duration as 25 years old, to be honest. My father's health declined in his last 5 years. He was trapped being attached to oxygen. It was pretty obvious, he died more from a lack of interest in living than dying from pneumonia that took him. Mom lasted several years past father. She missed him the whole time. She reached her mid 80s, and I think her clock merely ran out. I'm not afraid of dying, I'm afraid of a horrible lingering. When I go, I want it to be short and simple. If I'm due to last until 80, I want the last month to be no fuss or nonsense or pain and lingering. I won't mind being 100 as long as I can at least enjoy a nice lunch and sit quietly reading my books. I won't mind being slow and fragile. But I better at least have a mind that still works. If it turns out I'm totally wrong, and there is a God, he will find I'm not interested in his Heaven. I want to just not exist eventually. I was made in the heart of a star. And I want to go back to the nothing from where I spent billions of years unaware.
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