Charles2222
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ORIGINAL: marky ive tried, ive really tried, but it always cums bak stronger and hits me even harder i jus dont know how to fight it anymore I had a crushing experience for me back on 3/8/95-3/9/95. On 3/10/95 that all disappeared. How? Well, the circumstances that brought it on, didn't change in the least. What did I do? I called on Lord Jesus to comfort the sorrowed as He said He would. I had nowhere else to turn. It took two days, but the relief set me on fire when I woke up the morning of the 10th and as a happy by-product it convinced me that God exists if ever there were any doubt (and that He loves me. I'm not sure why in many ways I didn't think He did, before that). There's no therapist that measures up the One who made the therapists! I can't say that over the course of time that God might not want you to go to a therapist, but I can say I don't know a therapist who has all that power and 'care' He has. Beyond the problem that occurred to me back then, which lingers on today as a matter of fact, though not directly, I've dealt with it through oftentimes slow consultation of God (unlike getting that prayer answered in two days). Part of the problem with becoming so out of sorts with some form of loss, is that we become too attached to what we have, thus revealed by the high sense of loss. I know, for myself, I examined whether or not marriage was really a very feasible thing. It was clear that a great deal of my upsets were wearying me over that very subject, so I decided to try on another hat and see how it fits (the loss I spoke of wasn't a love loss at all). I'm putting on the celibate, or single role if you will, and I can say I'm much happier and far more controlled for it. Now maybe in a few years that will change, though I think it unlikely, but for now my main relationship is with God, and it has sufficed to get me through living the last 16 years alone. Some people are meant to be single, others are not. It seems as though most people (not necessarily a lot of wisdom to be found there) think that marriage was a lot tougher than they thought it was going to be, while I can say that living alone is far, far easier than I thought it was going to be. Of course, technically, I'm not living alone, because I have God alongside me, but for those who don't believe, for those who pay little or no attention to Him, I guess living alone could be quite a dreadful thing. Don't automatically think that you "have to be married" as I once did. Pray with a penitential humble heart, for comfort for your sorrow. I will say a little prayer for your comfort there too. I don't know if there's anything more you can do on your own, but I do know there was nothing else I could do, and a lot of times the best solution to a problem is to leave it in God's hands and react as He would have you. When you're so convinced that you have to come up with a solution, in a certain time period and other such nonsense, then it's very easy to stand in the way of letting God work it out and/or work it with you. I've seen very many instances of Divine Providence working out in my life since 1995, to put very much weight behind some puny idea I had. It's really dangerous to have the right solution at the wrong time, and so therefore sometimes a delay has to set in (if we will just let it), and things have to develope such that it can be understood properly. BTW, I add that after that great experience I had with Our Lord, He told me to do a few things (not vocally) and I did them. I think that's very important to do, if in fact there are any, simply because it does show some ingratitude, to not be open to His advice thereafter.
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