NateD -> Confusion (6/4/2001 12:35:00 PM)
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I just saw the movie "Pearl Harbor". During my 45 minute drive home I was in a daze. Maybe I'm thinking too much or maybe I'm just being idiotic but I thought I would post what I am feeling here, where I thought maybe someone might have an answer or something else for me.
I am the son of a Vietnam veteran, the Grandson of a Chief Petty Officer who came home after 3.5 years in various Japanese prison camps after being captured in the Philippines and the Grandson of a Marine who fought in Korea and Vietnam.
I have been to Pearl, have seen the Arizona and take my heritage and history very seriously. I teared up during the recreation of the attack and during the som eof the scenes afterwards. Then my right arm began to burn. You see a few months ago my wife and I decided to do something together. We decided for whatever reason to get tattoos. She found hers easy enough but I wanted something I could live with for the rest of my life. I looked and researched and thought asian script with a special meaning would be a good idea. After a week or so of looking I came across a site with Japanese symbols. I went to a page with the 7 virtues of Bushido, the warrior's code in Japan. I chose the virtue of "Honor & Glory" or "Meiyo". I got the tattoo and was very happy. About three weeks later after telling my dad and seeing the look in his eye, I put 2 & 2 together. I about threw up. I'm not sure why but I did. I wanted to sratch it off. I thought about the 3 years that were taken from my grandfather. I've read his manuscript of what happened. I've seen his pictures and heard his stories. Eventually I guess I put it out of my mind.
Tonight after seeing those Mitsubishi A-6 "Zero's" strafing the Sailors and Marines, my arm burned. After the movie I walked out to my car and sat down. That's when I realized I was driving home in a Mitsubishi Mirage.
45 minutes of wondering what my Grandfather would say to me. How he would feel seeing my arm, watching me drive this car. Seeing the look of my Dad's eyes on me.
I'm not quite sure where I am going with this but I needed to type it out and think about it and hopefully get some feedback.
I know I can't just forget the tatto and up and buy a different car but I cannot get past what they represent to people like my Dad and Grandfather.
I am proud of the service to our country that my family has given. I will volunteer in a moments notice if the call arises but I can't help wandering.
I'm gonna stop know cause I'm rambling. Thanks to all those who respond and I hope this isn't a waste of time.
[ June 04, 2001: Message edited by: NateD ]
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